March Reflection Letter
At the start of March, things were not starting right for me as it was after the exams. Also, I didn’t feel very good at that point of time because I sort of neglected God too much and didn’t see that He is always in my life.
What was worse was that I got into a car accident on my way to school with my mother and sister. I at first knew it was God who protected me, but later because the accident was too shocking, I asked myself why God would allow me to get into the accident, is it because I was drifting away? Then how can He do this? Then I asked my mother, “Is it God made this thing happen because He wanted me for Himself?” something like that. I can’t recall exactly what I asked. At that time, I remembered that He doesn’t need any of us and it hit me hardly. Then I realized it. We could use another car for free for 14 days which lasted until around the end of March. I could go to church as usual and I could continue to meditate on God’s Word and allow myself to get closer to Him. It took quite a while for me to recover from the shock and discovered that actually I was like the people in the Old Testament who easily wavered. I experienced it myself that it was actually difficult to grow in God more when something terrible happens. From this, I learnt that I had to trust God through the experiences that I have gone through and the knowledge I have gotten from God’s Word. I also truly realized life is precious and fragile. If something happened to me, I need to come face to face with God and feel ashamed of my sins. I would not be able to see my friends, family and loved ones ever again. I also truly understood that things on earth are nothing. When you die, you can’t bring anything with you. At the same time I went to school myself on the MRT, which was safer and I started to prefer it because when I went to school in car, it would be very early and I would be alone but I also couldn’t talk to my friend who didn’t fully believe in God.
The March holiday was also not pleasant for me because of the accident. I struggled my feelings with God alone because I didn’t talk to anyone about them. As the month went by, I got better, beginning to trust in God and grew happy again, it was also thanks to the happy moment I had with my friends whom God decided to put me with. Now, I am really happy, being able to be a child of God and witnessing more people coming to Christ and also experiencing the grace and peace of GodJ
My prayer request for April is that I would continue to grow more in God, spreading the love to others. Also pray that I would be able not to gossip about people whom I don’t like even though the influence by others is strong. Also pray that I will have discipline in getting things done.