Ok I decided to post about my week but I am a little scared D: recalling what happened. Now that I am posting and not talking, it is scary. At least someone is there when you are talking. Posting is on my own. Anyway some thing TERRIBLE happened on Thursday, my favourite day in term 1 this year when there are only a few lessons. There is Chem and Art:) So I didn't want to miss lesson on that day and also Isadora was going back to school on that day. When I was on the way to school in my family the car at highway, I was tying my hair and then suddenly the car went super slow because of the motorcycle in front. It was abnormally slow at highway. Then I knew something was wrong so I wanted to ask my mother why moving so slowly. But before I could ask we got banged, then in between had a few seconds to like wonder what will happen next even though everything happened so quickly. Then I didn't expect something to happen. But something happened. I don't know what actually happened after that but there was strong air resistance and I was closing my eyes so tightly. Then the movement got slower and then everything came to a stop and nobody got injured just that motorist. During the strong movement, I was like wondering why must this happen. After that, I was like trembling and my heart never beat so fast before. Then during the process of the strong movement, I hit my head. I don't know how my head hit something. Then the car was in the opposite direction. Then the glass at the back was gone. Then later I found out by the lorry people, motorist and another kind uncle that the car actually spinned. I don't think is half a round but 1 and a half round since it was so fast that I couldn't even open my eyes. When the car was spinning, it hit the motorcycle and a car nearby. Then we were like too nervous to know what to do. Then my mother said we had to get out of the car. But before that, she said I had to tie my hair first. Then my hands were shaking and because my heart beat very fast, there is a lot of energy so I was tying my hair very quickly. Then we got out of the car. Then some annoying people kept honking like crazy. I was like already so scared. They have no brains=people who have no brains are dead. The police and ambulance came. Then later we were not allowed to go yet. We must wait for the motorist to be sent to the hospital first and the hospital to call the police at the scene to make sure he is okay. Then the police were like so fierce. They were mostly Malays. Then the motorist was like poor thing. He said the hospital bills would be expensive. Then the people involved in the acident were like saying the insurance people will pay. They said it was nobody's fault. 'Nobody' is not perfect. LOL I saw until Xinyi's bag today. Anyway then my sister and I were like carrying our bags and standing at the side of the road, got shock already... Then after that the uncle whose car got knocked a bit was very kind. He was like keep on telling us not to be scared and that I was very lucky because I sat at the back and didn't get injured at all even though there was scratched on my hand by glass but I didn't know. It was my mother who checked on me then saw until the scratch. Then I think some glass dropped into my collar, so my neck got scratched but not as serious as my elbow there the scratch. Then the kind uncle told us to sit in his car and then he switched on the tv in his car for us to watch. So nice to watch. Haha. After this thing happened a lot things were running in my mind. Before the acident, my heart was not at peace. Some things that came to my mind according to my six sense came true. Then after that, I was still troubled but didn't know this would happen. Anyway after this happened, I am still troubled then I found J quarrelled with C&I. I was like O.0 Then after that problem solved, I am still troubled. I don't know whether what I am troubled about will happen. I dont dare to tell anyone about it. I just feel weird. There is too much coincidence happening now. So after that, I was like scared about the acident. When I reached home, when something dropped and there is sound, I will remember the lorry banging the sound. Then I will run to go see. Anyway I knew God is always there, protecting me from danger:) I got to go to sleep.
This blog has been set up for quite long and I am not caring about it... Anyway the pictures are very funny. The dog pee haha. Okay and I decided to use the same url because of the situation on this earth. A lot of stuff is happening. The clementi incident reminded me of North Korea building nuclear weapons... And also in Singapore so many things already are happening. People joining gangs and fighting; boosting; being happy over others' failures; being jealous of others; being self-centred; etc. These are the COLDNESS OF THIS EARTH. Oh and I need to write my reflection letter. I should as well do it here and copy and paste and send it to Amaryllis. Tomorrow, there is my uncle's wedding. Wonder what to wear... I am so happy. I can see my relatives again. I love my grandparents very much:) They took care of me so well:) I also will include January's reflection letter too:)
JanuaryReflectionLetterJanuary is an official month of school reopening for me. Work was piling up fast but at least I was able to cope. There were surprised tests like Chemistry and Math. God was really there for me. I didn’t fail for the two tests. I didn’t even study and wasn’t prepared at all. This really shows that God doesn’t only help those who help themselves. I think I also learnt quite a lot during school hours and of course in church.
There was a particular English lesson when we were doing descriptive writing. We were to describe our favourite celebrity, a room and something that was inside our bags. Our teacher picked one of our writings. That student was quite popular in our class and was thought as one of the naughtiest person in our class. He wrote about something that was in his bag, something precious to him from his elder brother but it was only a charm. I think this really hit me and made me realize no matter how many times my sister picks up a quarrel with me, she still loves me. I learnt to treasure my sister more, even when she always picks up quarrels with me and sometimes I felt touched when I remember that she actually loves me. I want to ask God to help me through these lessons help me realized about things even when they are small so that I will grow more in Him.
In Jan, I was quite forgetful too. I realized some things that I forgot were part of me not putting in my whole heart to do something. However others like me forgetting that I already took my pencil case out and went searching inside my bag were unexplainable. I want to pray that I will put in my heart to do everything well.
Other than that, I also tried to tell God’s Word to my friends. Even though it was difficult and unsuccessful many times, I still managed to get the attention of one of them. This dragged from like last December till now. During last year, she was excited about knowing God’s Word. However, later, she made her decision to be one-third Christian, Buddhist and Taoist. She even mentioned being a Christian last. Later on, when I thought she was doing well, I told her a little more about God but she was like against it totally. She even asked why God didn’t give us a choice to choose which religion we want to believe in and she would not even give me a chance to explain. Sometimes I really wonder why people of the Old Testament will turn away from God. In Exodus, I learnt that no matter how many times the Israelites doubted God, He still provided for them. The incident adds onto the prayer requests, asking God to help my friend to open her heart and slowly accept Him. Perhaps in the first place, she didn’t even really believe.
In church, I also learnt quite a lot in 1st Timothy. It warns us about false teaches in real life and the consequences of believing in them. It also tells us how God’s Grace is always abundant. Because of my busy schedule sometimes, I would forget about God and this is considered as a sin. I would feel guilty and scared but remembering that God’s Grace is so much makes me want to rejoice. This also adds onto the prayer requests, asking God to help me grow more in Him and not forget Him.
FebruaryReflectionLetterAfter January ended, I started on with a new month. It was getting busier as usual because of the class tests and common tests coming up. I even felt that I am drifting away from God. My temper also got sort of bad because of the hectic month.
Because of the busy starting of the month, God has helped me through the learning of 1st Timothy about the praying that is for everyone. I think it really touched me a lot that I continued to pray hard for my non-christian friends and those who don't really believe in God but are considered 'Christians' because their parents are Christians. Because of one of these 'Christians', I talked to one of my friends who is a Christian about how we can help our good friend and the response I got was shocking. It was not how I expected. She told me why must I care about that friend, it is her own business. Then she told me how she actually felt as a 'Christian'. She actually thinks that people who goes to religions and gods are stressful or think that they cannot have the capability of doing what they want to do well in. But she got the whole wrong idea of who God really is and I was like surprised that tears sort of appeared in my eyes and she instead was saying, " Don't cry ar or not I slapped you ar" in a joking way. I really don't know what to do. Because she was our good friend's old schoolmate too, I thought they were that type of Christians in a way. Then there is another friend who also was from their old primary school. I was worried at that point of time if there is no real Christian in my class, I felt suddenly very lonely as a Christian. But I think God let me see from another point of view. There was a true believer of Christ in my class and I didn't expect her to be one. After this incident, I sort of lost courage to talk about God's Word to people besides that true believer of Christ. Because of this, I started thinking of ideas to talk to that friend who said she didn't really care about her friend whether she is a real Christian or not. She didn't give me a chance to explain who God really is, she will just cut in and when she continued cutting in. I gave up because she will keep on repeating what she has said and I still will not have the chance to bring across the message. So I decided to write a letter to her with God's help after the common tests end in March.
In this friend, I saw that she was similar to the Ephesians whom Paul was writing about to Timothy. After becoming a Christian, she brought in her own believe and continued believing in it, not trusting God fully. She also told me that she believe in God 30% only. This really shows that the bible really relates to the real world now.
My prayer requests hence for the next month is that God will help me to write a letter to my friend, telling who God really is and that He will open her heart to except God as her ONLY Savior. And because I started drifting away from Him and didn't spend much time with Him, pray that He will help me to grow closer with Him and that I will not forget about Him. Also pray that my relationship with my family and God will get better. Also pray for courage for me to spend God's Word even after the incident with my friend.
please do not take anything to heart.these are just my own reflections, I can't blame anyone for not believing in what I want best for them, to not let them suffer, but if they don't get the intention of true Christians, then there is no choice. 
